en entry written by a person...
who was feeling too stressed up...
by e promos...

life is filled with revision these days... revision revision revision revision and revision... and also... not forgetting our lessons... cca plannings... and e dearest pw wr and EOM!!!

been doing my eom for hours... and still cant really pass... totally hate it... sosososososo angry!!! wanna explode!!!

everything coming up together... how to do??? [laughing with tears in e eyes] sobz...

i hate my life now...
life without { outings.. friends... meeting ups... dinner with friends... going out... slacking times... aim.. goal.. longlong tv session... computer games... pool.. k-box.. town.. movies... chalets... }
just hate it totaly!!!

wats e point... living in it while u dont like part any of it... may as well just stop schooling and go work right?? sometimes i really feel like going back centuries... where no 1 knows wat is dy/dx.. and stupid formulae like power/area... is just sicking la... living in such a world... which has an education system tt aims to stretch e students...

i really envy those tt can really put themselves down and study for like hours... im loosing my patience... or did i have it in e 1st place... maybe i need to be forced?? or maybe tt also wont work..

sat down at my study table for 2 hrs just now... and dint even manage to finish a lecture notes with only 8pgs... and half e things dint get in... wats wrong?? im i just stupid or just stupid...

how am i suppose to bring myself back to e correct path?? desperately need a event to destress... i no there isnt much time left b4 e promos... and i really wanna do well... i no all e things tt im suppose to no... and all tt im suppose to have done... but... but... but... fine.. im trying to find an excuse for myself... ok.. i admit...

im nv good at controling myself at e impt time... dint put in all e effort tt i could have for almost all the things in my life... always loosing it in e most impt time... the last min..

i have almost all e things 1 could have want in life... a gd life.. a gd family.. gd parents tt really love me... but i have take them for granted most of e time... even gd grandparents who always dote on me... gd friends who accept all my mistakes... and my childish acts... and support me whenever im feeling low... i have all tt 1 could have ask for.. in a perfect life.. yet my life is like.. a total mess...

im sorry tt my blog became my place to destress.. cas cant find any other ways... if i keep everything to my heart and head... i will become a tumbler in no time... just tt im upside down... -^-..